All You really had to do was ask

Am I crazy to think someone out there can love me? Am I too picky? What is wrong with me?


I fell like I try so hard but it never works out in my favor. I keep getting this same test but I fail. You keep coming back to me in a different form. The same boy, just a different situation and I still end up doing the same thing. My heart hurts from breaking. Is it ever going to heal or will it end up splitting in half? I don't even care anymore. I don't want to feel this again.


The worst thing for me is knowing the potential in you. I see you. I care about you. Most people don't appreciate everything you've accomplished. They don't see you like I do. I want you to see me like that. I want to give every part of me to you but I want you to do the same for me. And you can't. It's killing me.

Don't you see me? Am I invisible? My signs are neon but you still don't see them? I don't see how you can be so blind when I notice everything about you. Why does this always seem to happen? I'm sick of feeling this same way. I fall for the guy who doesn't want to have anything more but doesn't play by his own rules. I can't play those games because my heart hurts. It's bruised and I really don't think I can take much more of the "fun" that we are having because outside in the real world. It's really not so fun. It's really not worth my sanity over.

I just want to be loved. I want it to be you. You don't. I cry hoping you'll remember me. Hoping you'll realize I'm worth it. You haven't yet. I'm giving up. I still cry.